You're standing on the high school steps,
the double doors swung closed behind you
for the last time, not the last time you'll ever
be damned or praised by your peers, spoken of
in whispers, but the last time you'll lock your locker,
zip up your gym bag, put on your out-of-style jacket,
your too-tight shoes. You're about to be
done with it: the gum, the gossip, the worship
of a boy in the back row, histories of wheat and war,
cheat sheets, tardies, the science of water,
negative numbers and compound fractions.
You don't know it yet but what you'll miss
is the books, heavy and fragrant and frayed,
the pages greasy, almost transparent, thinned
at the edges by hundreds of licked thumbs.
What you'll remember is the dumb joy
of stumbling across a passage so perfect
it drums in your head, drowns out
the teacher and the lunch bell's ring. You've stolen
A Tree Grows in Brooklyn from the library.
Lingering on the steps, you dig into your bag
to touch its heat: stolen goods, willfully taken,
in full knowledge of right and wrong.
You call yourself a thief. There are worse things,
you think, fingering the cover, tracing
the embossed letters like someone blind.
This is all you need as you take your first step
toward the street, joining characters whose lives
might unfold at your touch. You follow them into
the blur of the world. Into whoever you're going to be.
the double doors swung closed behind you
for the last time, not the last time you'll ever
be damned or praised by your peers, spoken of
in whispers, but the last time you'll lock your locker,
zip up your gym bag, put on your out-of-style jacket,
your too-tight shoes. You're about to be
done with it: the gum, the gossip, the worship
of a boy in the back row, histories of wheat and war,
cheat sheets, tardies, the science of water,
negative numbers and compound fractions.
You don't know it yet but what you'll miss
is the books, heavy and fragrant and frayed,
the pages greasy, almost transparent, thinned
at the edges by hundreds of licked thumbs.
What you'll remember is the dumb joy
of stumbling across a passage so perfect
it drums in your head, drowns out
the teacher and the lunch bell's ring. You've stolen
A Tree Grows in Brooklyn from the library.
Lingering on the steps, you dig into your bag
to touch its heat: stolen goods, willfully taken,
in full knowledge of right and wrong.
You call yourself a thief. There are worse things,
you think, fingering the cover, tracing
the embossed letters like someone blind.
This is all you need as you take your first step
toward the street, joining characters whose lives
might unfold at your touch. You follow them into
the blur of the world. Into whoever you're going to be.
This poem just seems right on this blog. I identify with it on so many levels. Beautiful. :)
7 comments:
I love it! And shall I tell you a secret? I stole Of Human Bondage from my school library, and rationalised the guilt away by telling myself it was old and ripped with pages missing and it was about time they bought a new copy. :) I still have it.
That just about sums up my school life, right from the gum and the boy at the back to the library which was my haven of life and happiness and everything in between..
Lovely poem.
I too have sinned in my pursuit of books,atleast a dozen books went missing from the local library(this was before the age of RFID tags:D)
As a small token of appreciation for all the wonderful things about books you share on your blog,am leaving you with 2 small passage's about books that gave me goosebumps the first time I read them:D
"There was a time machine in our world,but not the contraption of metals and bolts and motors imagined by a man even as imaginative as HG Wells.Socrates was wrong.A reader learns what he or she does not know from books,what has passed and yet what is forever present through print.The mating rituals of the Trobriand islanders.The travails of the Donner party.The beaches of Normandy.The smoke from the stacks at Auschwitz.Experience,emotion, landscape:the world is as layered as the earth,life cumulative with books.The eyewitnesses die.The written word lives forever."
-- Anna Quindlen
"I remember the feeling of excitement that I had,the first time that I realized that each letter had a sound,and the sounds went together to make words,and the words became sentences,and the sentences became stories.The very beginning of a childs reading is much more primal than that,for it is not so much reading,but writing,learning to form the letters that make her own name.Naming the world:it is what we do with words from that moment on.All of reading is really only finding ways to name ourselves, and,perhaps to name the others around us so that they will no longer seem like strangers.Crusoe and Friday.Ishmael and Ahab.Daisy and Gatsby.Pip and Estella.Me.I am not alone.I am surrounded by words that tell me who I am,why I feel what I feel"
--Lois Lowry
Arumugam, that is beautiful! Thank you! Pip and Estella! :) I am so grateful for your blog sometimes, Nitisha! :)
Gosh Arumugam, I got goosebumps reading the Lois Lowry quote. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
And look at the serene yet dangerous power of Quindlen's words 'The eyewitnesses die.The written word lives forever.' Amazing :')
And I am the perennial book-thief. Half my neighborhood library is to be found in my cupboards. All the fast-paced fiction, the suspense thrillers and the occasional passionate romance find a place shamelessly in my room. If anyone finds out, my plan is to claim kleptomania. :D
Wow, beautifully written poem. I haven't really been reading poems at all, for a while now.
Nice of you to share such a good work when I finally did :)
Amazing poem! I read many of your posts! Way to go! :D
I love reading as well and I wish I would read so much more than I usually do!
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