I've been feeling slightly out of it lately.
Restless with the routine of everyday life.Every today is identical to a yesterday which is identical to a tomorrow. My big adventure of the day was trying out the new Chicken Salad sandwich at Cafe Coffee Day. (Yeah, I'm sticking to my Tropical Iceberg, please.)
Let's take for example, the subject of Psychology I've been learning in college. The lecturers are great, better than many we've had this year, their presentations are loaded with great examples, yet I feel slightly disconnected. While they promulgate the fact of every individual being unique, they delve in so many stereotypes and generalizations of behaviour.
No, I do not believe that girls imitate their mother's behaviour and guys imitate their father in the course of their own relationships. Simply because we are exposed to so many people and role models in life, who impact and influence our interactions.
No, I do not believe that guys wear only blue and girls wear only pink. And how come a guy wearing pink is a big deal and not a girl wearing blue?
No, I do not believe that a guy would choose not to marry a woman who earned more than him in this day and age. If he does, he is shallow and that cannot and should not be attributed to 'typical male behaviour' or some such nonsense. That only validates bullshit.
No, I do not believe that when money comes into the hands of women their first instinct is to splurge on themselves. For heaven's sake, 99% of clients of microfinance institutions the world over are women. ONLY because they are more responsible than men when it comes to managing finances. Research proves it. Take a look if you don't believe me.
You get why I'm not enjoying the subject, right?
But it's not just that that is eating away at me.
I look around and I see slackers. And I see people who are satisfied with what they see and the situation they are in. And I see people who don't know and even worse, don't care to know what's happening around them.
Maybe they've attained that tranquil state of nirvana. If they have, I'm happy for them.
I wonder sometimes, do I just have a profound misunderstanding of what reality is supposed to be.
Or maybe this is it, and I don't know how to fix it.
Shit, all of a sudden, I feel like tearing apart all those Ayn Rand books I have.
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world.
6 comments:
I am totally with u in this!!
I see people living in cocoons! Disconnected to the real world. Never goes out of the routine claiming they don't have time for anything and if u suggest a time saving measure they are too cynical to accept it. .
Hi bunny,
how was the chicken salad sandwich?
If it is tasty can you get it for me on your way back home after office?
Hey,
Things are going to get better. Just give it time. Life is full of randomness anyway, with its various sets of disappointments.
Be patient and you'll find happiness soon, for sure.
:)
No subject we study (at least in India) is perfect and accommodates any deviation as a general case. But stick with it...the better you get to know the basics you're studying, the more will be your determination to research and produce something new in the field.
We learn geometry all through school but when I joined my undergrads, the first thing I was told was that Geometry will be destructed right in front of you and all your knowledge will be rendered useless. I didn't know how to question when I started to learn geometry. I do now. And I know it was all for a purpose :)
psychology is about slotting people into "types" ...
anything that isn't "normal" is a either a syndrome/disorder...
and about slackers.. its just total-disregard .. that they have ..
and no there is no misunderstanding of reality on ur part.. its just that reality is different for everybody..
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read ur blog after a long time.. as i was on a blog sabbatical
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